I am so ashamed of me...

Hold me now I need to feel relief 
Like I never wanted anything 
I suppose I'll let this go  
and find a reason I'll hold on to 
I'm so ashamed of defeat 
And I'm out of reason to believe in me 
I'm out of trying to get by 
 I'm so afraid of the gift you give me 
I don't belong here and I'm not well 
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living 
Right on the wrong side of it all 
 I can't face myself when I wake up 
And look inside a mirror 
I'm so ashamed of that thing 
I suppose I'll let it go 
Untill I have something more to say for me 
I'm so afraid of defeat 
And I'm out of reason to believe in me 
I'm out of trying to defy 


I'm so afraid of the gift you give me 
I don't belong here and I'm not well 
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living 
Right on the wrong side of it all 


Hold me now I need to feel complete 
Like I matter to the one I need 


I'm so afraid of the gift you give me 
I don't belong here and I'm not well 
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living 
Right on the wrong side of it all 


Now I'm ashamed of this 
I am so ashamed of this 
Now I'm so ashamed of this 
I am so ashamed of me...